Thursday, August 19, 2010

Quote, unquote.

"I've been skinny.  It's fucking boring".

-- Kate Winslet

I want this blog -- and my journey -- to be less about losing weight and more about gaining a life.

Sure, at 277 pounds I'm well aware I need to lose weight.  But if I grow obsessive about what I eat, what I "can" and "can't" have, planning out precise portions and counting every calorie, what kind of life am I going to have?  Is it really going to be better than the one I have right now?   

Or will I (still) be obsessed with food and eating?

I don't want to believe the myth -- as I have for years -- that if I am skinny all will be perfect.  I was skinny once, I wasn't fat at all 'til my early 20's, and my existence was far from perfect. 

Very, very far.
Could it be that I'm searching for balance?
Peace of mind?
If I keep writing, I'll find out.

1 comment:

  1. She is just gorgeous. I love her.

    This post is great: it's so important to keep in mind that skinniness will not be a problem solver.