Sunday, August 29, 2010

On why I cannot keep (even sugar-free) pudding mix in the house ...

... because pudding is a binge food for me, and I can have pudding in FIVE MINUTES FLAT if I have the mix and milk (which I always have) on hand. 

If recovery and growth is about honesty, well this is the honest truth.  I can't keep even the "guiltless" versions of these things in my house yet.  Maybe someday, but not today.

How do I know this? 

Two bowls of pudding yesterday, kids.  An additional six hundred or so calories, which in and of itself isn't the problem, so much as the fact that I chose to eat instead of dealing with my feelings.  Weekend feelings, which are some of the hardest for me.

Can anybody else relate to the "weekend feelings" phenomenon?  When the hustle and jostle and routine of the week are absent and there is suddenly a lack of structure and routine to distract?

It's an issue. 

And issues gotta be dealt with.  (Damn!)


  1. Are you okay? I found you through lapbandtalk, and I enjoy reading your posts.

  2. Hi LoveMySeabee,

    Thank you for your comment. It got me to posting again. I needed the noodge.